Saturday, October 4, 2008

A REFLECTION OF PUSHING 50

AS TIME PASSES EACH AN EVERY DAY A STEP CLOSER DOWN THAT UNKNOWN SECTOR OF THE CAVERNS OF LIFE
THOSE NEVER ENDING PASSAGEWAYS INTO THE DARKNESS . THE FUTURE UNKNOWN . IN ALL I HAVE SURVIVED. PASSING THRU UNCERTAIN TIMES IN MY YOUTH FORGING MY OWN EXISTENCE. IN THIS COLD WORLD I CAN SAY REGRETS ARE JUST NEGATIVE INFLUENCES THAT PASS . AND I CERTAINLY REALISE THAT YOU CANT CHANGE THE PAST YOU CAN ONLY CHANGE THE FUTURE. YOU WAKE UP AN ITS ANOTHER DAY. AND AS I HAVE LEARNED ITS UP TO YOU TO MAKE THOSE CHANGES. IN SO I PROCEED WITH CAUTION AVOIDING OUTSIDE INFLUENCES. BY NOW I CAN SAY I HAVE LEARNED TO LIVE AN JUST TO ENJOY THE DAY. THE MOMENT THOSE UNEXPECTED CIRCUMSTANCES THAT CREATE AN AWARENESS OF JUST HOW PRECIOUS LIFE REALLY IS . I AM SURE AS WE ALL COME CLOSER TO THE END OF THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE. WE ARE ALL AWARE THAT TIME PASSES MORE QUICKLY THE OLDER WE GET . AND WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT WE HAVE ACQUIRED IN OUR LIVES. IF WE ONLY HAD THE CHANCE TO GO BACK AN DO IT ALL AGAIN. BUT REALITY SETS IN AS YOU LOOK INTO THE MIRROR EACH AN EVERY DAY. THE HAVOC OF TIME ETCHED INTO THAT REFLECTION YOU PEER AT INCREASINGLY BECOMES MORE UNUSUAL TO ACCEPT IN REALITY . IF THERE ONLY WAS NO MIRRORS TO VIEW WE WOULD NOT JUDGE QUITE SO HARSHLY OURSELVES . I REALLY DON'T FEEL SO OLD. AWAKING AS SO MANY TIMES BEFORE I FEEL JUST LIKE A KID. MY PERCEPTION OF MYSELF ONLY BECOMES REALITY AS I HAVE SAID THAT DREADED MIRROR ON THE WALL. IT THROWS YOU BACK INTO THE HORRORS OF ACCEPTING THAT OVERWHELMING UNDERSTANDING OF THAT'S ME PEERING BACK FROM THE DEPTHS OF TIME. WHAT A NIGHTMARE I THINK THE DREADED UNKNOWN FUTURE MAY HOLD TERRORISING THE SOUL INTO PANIC . ANOTHER GREY HAIR EMERGES IN THAT SEA OF GREY ALREADY ESTABLISHED PERMEATING ITS CERTAIN DESTINY AS SO MANY OTHERS HAVE. ITS ONLY TIME TILL IT WILL JUMP SHIP RECEDING THAT HAIR LINE ONE STEP AT A TIME . AUGH ! I THINK IF THIS MIRROR WASN'T THERE. I WOULD NEVER KNOW JUST HOW FAR I HAVE COME AN THAT BRUTAL REALISATION OF APPROACHING FIFTY . WOULD NOT CARVE SUCH A GRAND CANYON OF MEMORIES IN MY THOUGHTS . DAMN THAT STINKING DREADED MIRROR. BUT I WILL NEVER GIVE UP NEVER TO GIVE IN MY APPROACH OF TOMORROW I STAND AN ACCEPT THAT . AN REALISE THAT TOMORROWS JUST ANOTHER DAY . AND TO STAY AWAY FROM THAT DREADED MIRROR. I HAVE LEARNED JUST TO LOVE MYSELF SO THAT OTHERS MAY LOVE THE OLD MAN THAT'S PEERING BACK IN THE MIRROR. BECAUSE IF YOU DON'T LOVE YOURSELF HOW CAN ANYONE EVER GET THRU THAT BARRIER . THAT IS CREATED BY NEGATIVITY . SO IF ANYONE READS THESE SCRIBBLINGS ACCEPT THE INEVITABLE AN GO WITH IT . LOVE YOURSELF AN APPRECIATE YOUR FRIENDS. AN WELL FAMILY IS JUST THAT FAMILY . YOU CANT CHANGE THEM BUT CERTAINLY AS I AM BREATHING YOU SURE CAN PICK THE FRIENDS THAT ARE IMPORTANT IN YOUR WORLD AND A KIND WORD. A SMILE NEVER HURTS. AND TO ALL MY FRIENDS ON MY SPACE . THANKS FOR JUST BEING WHO YOU ARE . I REALLY APPRECIATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE. AN DELIGHT IN SEEING THE HUMOR,FEELINGS,ATTITUDES POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE THAT YOU EXHIBIT IN YOUR DAILY STATUS UPDATES. IT REMINDS ME EVERY ONES GOING THRU THE SAME THING LIFE ISN'T IT WONDERFUL . TO HAVE FRIENDS. FOR THOSE WHO READ MY SCRIBBLINGS . I HOPE YOUR DAYS ARE FILLED WITH SMILES LAUGHTER N HAPPINESS THROUGHOUT THE YEARS TO COME . AN WHEN SADNESS APPROACHES DO AS I DO JUST SMILE. GIVE A KIND WORD TO THOSE AROUND YOU. A HELLO .A HAVE A NICE DAY. EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE CRAPOLIES .BECAUSE I HAVE LEARNED THIS IN MY OLD AGE .SADNESS IS TIME YOU CAN NEVER GET BACK . ITS A PRECIOUS THING TIME IS . SO CHERISH THOSE AROUND YOU AND SHOW A LITTLE KINDNESS AND CHEER SPREAD IT AROUND IT IS CATCHY IT GIVES YOU LIFE AND TOMORROWS ANOTHER DAY.
DIRTDOG

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